Stuffy on the inside.
Thursday, November 19, 2009 4:22:00 AM
How does it feels to have an unknown wall inside you,
that always controls you, from being yourself?
Constantly reminding you that you must not act this way,
or speak some words?
Or even, telling u that u can't be too trusting NO MATTER who it is,
n that you must be reeally careful in everything you say or do,
so that ppl will not have the chance to pick on you?
And no matter how you wish to free yourself,
you think you ARE being yourself,
But later on realised that you've always been closing up all these while..?
Maybe it's the things which we've gone through
which made each of us how we are today.
N maybe learning about reality is for our own good.
But sometimes I just miss being naive,
because you won't need to be afraid to let ppl know how you feel.
You won't need to be afraid, to speak to EVEN your best friends.
You'd feel so free.
...
It always gets stuffy when you wear a mask for too long.
That's how I feel right now, but inside the heart.
I don't know since when I'd started feeling this way,
But I just do.
It's only when you're here,
I feel that the mask is removed.
If only you're here.
♥ LX``4:22:00 AM
The past 2 weekends.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009 5:23:00 AM
♥ LX``5:23:00 AM
Guitar 1, Guitar 2.
2:42:00 AM
17 Nov 09, Tuesday: rainy night!
Just did some laundry.
I think my kitchen always gives me creeps. Or I think too much. :x
Today is officially our 2nd guitar lesson!!
Went down to SIM despite having no classes. (holiday~)
First time carrying my bulky guitar OUT.
I was 25 mins late, missed some tuning lesson.
Overall lesson was great, thou wasn't able to catch up with the changing of chords to chords,
but I'll be practicing at home.
My new hobby! :D
We learned the song "Secret" today.
Bu neng shuo de mi mi~
Went bookshop & Long Johns with Guitar 1 after.
Hahaha. Enjoyed laughing at each other.
She's so funny luh! lol. (:
I'm feeling HUNGRY now!!
Nowadays always like that, turn hungry ghost at night.
Think will be growing back to L size after this holiday.
Very, very hungry.
♥ LX``2:42:00 AM
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